motivate

As I grow up, the thing I experience for the first time is getting less and less. If I were 90 years old I imagine all I do is secondhand. Just the thought of it makes me shiver. In order to motivate myself, I everyday ruminate about something I can excite by. However, it is difficult to keep the stance. What is that I am motivated? Sometime it may be seeing movies, sometimes it may be visiting museum, sometime it is seeing my old friends. That is, to lessen my routine can motivate myself. I know that well but this rain makes me lose my drive. I know this is my usual excuse.